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8th May, 2007. 12:23 am. Catching up on life

Time certainly passes.  I've said it probably a million times on this journal thing, but I wish I had kept updating.  It's interesting to see my life through my eyes years ago.  In many ways how idealistic I was, how young I suppose.

It's hard to keep an idealist down!  Here's what's been going on in my life.

I dropped education off my degree.  Well, that may not be entirely accurate.  I have yet to turn in the forms that will allow me to do this, but I have them and intend on filling them out.  During the summer I am taking precalculus and intro to chem, starting myself on the path to medicine.  The short end of the stick is this:  I got sick with pneumonia this spring semester.  It wasn't fun, and for days I had a temperature of 103.  I went to the doctors and they failed to diagnose me, and sent me out of the infirmary with the 103 temperature.  The next day I went back and they did some x-rays to find that - whoops, I had pneumonia.  I felt that I could have done a better job than these people, and I find the entire workings of the body fascinating, so I've decided to go into medicine.

I'm keeping my music degree because, well, I'm a music major.  What can I do?  I love music.  My studies in the French Horn continue and I am making great progress.  I'm not where I want to be, but it's just going to take a lot of hard work that I need to be willing to put in.  I've come a long way from where I was, not taking lessons or anything... but I have a road ahead of me.  A lot of it is mental now and that's what is the time consuming part.

I have a girlfriend name Pilar, we've been going out for roughly 3 months now.  She's a ball of fun and exactly like me but, as Chip Gustavson, my music education roommate puts it, "like you but on caffeen." I'm not sure where I want to go with this relationship.  I don't want anything serious, so we'll see how this all plays out

I was in the marching band during the fall season, and the Lord blessed my experience there by allowing us to go to the National Championship.  Weird thing - isn't it?  The semester before I drop music education on a whim, and the only semester I was planning on doing it anyway, we go to the National Championship.  I learned a lot from the Marching band, mostly not what to do.

During the fall and also this past spring I was in the University Choir, which - again - the Lord chose to bless me by making it the best choir the school as seen yet.  We performed Carmina Burana in the fall as one of our major productions, then did a normal concert (bi-semesterly performances with this group) with performance trips scattered throughout fall and spring.

The funny thing with both these organizations is that this was the year they chose to do recordings on a CD... so I'll always have a copy of what we sounded like - for better or for worse.

Dad is still dad, and mom is still mom.  Karis and George have been going out for a while now... almost a year I believe.  Steve has been to China and back and now just left on Wednesday for singapore to go visit Hoo Ying, his current girlfriend across the seas.

I keep two groups of friends in my mind, my "back home" group of friends which basically consists of those that have chosen to keep in touch with me, and I with them, and my UF group of friends.

I am still the President of CLO, or should I say I am the President if I never mentioned it in this journal thing before.  I have been for an entire year, and I was recently reelected back in April to serve another year.  We will see if I will or not.  I am focused on my future now, and that means med school and all those terribly hard classes.  I will do what I can, but if it's do much then I'm going to step down.  With that in mind I am going to be training people to take the position in case I need to drop out in the fall.

That's sort of my life in a nutshell - all the things that come to mind anyway.  I want to start a bible study in the summer, so I'm going to ask my dad how to go about doing that. 

Right now i"m listening to Pilar's disney CD... at least one aspect in which she differs from me - ha.

Phil

Current music: Disney Heroes CD.

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2nd February, 2007. 10:16 am. The other side?

Jan. 22, 2007, 8:19PM
Climate scientists feeling the heat
As public debate deals in absolutes, some experts fear predictions 'have created a monster'

Scientists long have issued the warnings: The modern world's appetite for cars, air conditioning and cheap, fossil-fuel energy spews billions of tons of carbon dioxide into the atmosphere, unnaturally warming the world.

Yet, it took the dramatic images of a hurricane overtaking New Orleans and searing heat last summer to finally trigger widespread public concern on the issue of global warming.

Climate scientists might be expected to bask in the spotlight after their decades of toil. The general public now cares about greenhouse gases, and with a new Democratic-led Congress, federal action on climate change may be at hand.

Problem is, global warming may not have caused Hurricane Katrina, and last summer's heat waves were equaled and, in many cases, surpassed by heat in the 1930s.

In their efforts to capture the public's attention, then, have climate scientists oversold global warming? It's probably not a majority view, but a few climate scientists are beginning to question whether some dire predictions push the science too far.

"Some of us are wondering if we have created a monster," says Kevin Vranes, a climate scientist at the University of Colorado.

Vranes, who is not considered a global warming skeptic by his peers, came to this conclusion after attending an American Geophysical Union meeting last month. Vranes says he detected "tension" among scientists, notably because projections of the future climate carry uncertainties — a point that hasn't been fully communicated to the public.

The science of climate change often is expressed publicly in unambiguous terms.

For example, last summer, Ralph Cicerone, president of the National Academy of Sciences, told the U.S. House Committee on Energy and Commerce: "I think we understand the mechanisms of CO2 and climate better than we do of what causes lung cancer. ... In fact, it is fair to say that global warming may be the most carefully and fully studied scientific topic in human history."

Vranes says, "When I hear things like that, I go crazy."

Nearly all climate scientists believe the Earth is warming and that human activity, by increasing the level of greenhouse gases such as carbon dioxide, has contributed significantly to the warming.

But within the broad consensus are myriad questions about the details. How much of the recent warming has been caused by humans? Is the upswing in Atlantic hurricane activity due to global warming or natural variability? Are Antarctica's ice sheets at risk for melting in the near future?

To the public and policymakers, these details matter. It's one thing to worry about summer temperatures becoming a few degrees warmer.

It's quite another if ice melting from Greenland and Antarctica raises the sea level by 3 feet in the next century, enough to cover much of Galveston Island at high tide.

Models aren't infallible

Scientists have substantial evidence to support the view that humans are warming the planet — as carbon dioxide levels rise, glaciers melt and global temperatures rise. Yet, for predicting the future climate, scientists must rely upon sophisticated — but not perfect — computer models.

"The public generally underappreciates that climate models are not meant for reducing our uncertainty about future climate, which they really cannot, but rather they are for increasing our confidence that we understand the climate system in general," says Michael Bauer, a climate modeler at NASA's Goddard Institute for Space Studies, in New York.

Gerald North, professor of atmospheric sciences at Texas A&M University, dismisses the notion of widespread tension among climate scientists on the course of the public debate. But he acknowledges that considerable uncertainty exists with key events such as the melting of Antarctica, which contains enough ice to raise sea levels by 200 feet.

"We honestly don't know that much about the big ice sheets," North says. "We don't have great equations that cover glacial movements. But let's say there's just a 10 percent chance of significant melting in the next century. That would be catastrophic, and it's worth protecting ourselves from that risk."

Much of the public debate, however, has dealt in absolutes. The poster for Al Gore's global warming movie, An Inconvenient Truth, depicts a hurricane blowing out of a smokestack. Katrina's devastation is a major theme in the film.

Judith Curry, an atmospheric scientist at the Georgia Institute of Technology, has published several research papers arguing that a link between a warmer climate and hurricane activity exists, but she admits uncertainty remains.

Like North, Curry says she doubts there is undue tension among climate scientists but says Vranes could be sensing a scientific community reaction to some of the more alarmist claims in the public debate.

For years, Curry says, the public debate on climate change has been dominated by skeptics, such as Richard Lindzen of the Massachusetts Institute of Technology, and strong advocates such as NASA's James Hansen, who calls global warming a ticking "time bomb" and talks about the potential inundation of all global coastlines within a few centuries.

That may be changing, Curry says. As the public has become more aware of global warming, more scientists have been brought into the debate. These scientists are closer to Hansen's side, she says, but reflect a more moderate view.

"I think the rank-and-file are becoming more outspoken, and you're hearing a broader spectrum of ideas," Curry says.

Young and old tension

Other climate scientists, however, say there may be some tension as described by Vranes. One of them, Jeffrey Shaman, an assistant professor of atmospheric sciences at Oregon State University, says that unease exists primarily between younger researchers and older, more established scientists.

Shaman says some junior scientists may feel uncomfortable when they see older scientists making claims about the future climate, but he's not sure how widespread that sentiment may be. This kind of tension always has existed in academia, he adds, a system in which senior scientists hold some sway over the grants and research interests of graduate students and junior faculty members.

The question, he says, is whether it's any worse in climate science.

And if it is worse? Would junior scientists feel compelled to mute their findings, out of concern for their careers, if the research contradicts the climate change consensus?

"I can understand how a scientist without tenure can feel the community pressures," says environmental scientist Roger Pielke Jr., a colleague of Vranes' at the University of Colorado.

Pielke says he has felt pressure from his peers: A prominent scientist angrily accused him of being a skeptic, and a scientific journal editor asked him to "dampen" the message of a peer-reviewed paper to derail skeptics and business interests.

"The case for action on climate science, both for energy policy and adaptation, is overwhelming," Pielke says. "But if we oversell the science, our credibility is at stake."

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22nd December, 2006. 5:19 pm. Strange dream

So I had two weird dreams.  I say they are weird because I still remember them over a day later - one of them for two days now.

I had just rushed back into Gainesville and dropped all my stuff off at CLO in my old room.  I looked around and couldn't find anyone, so once I had everything set up I went outside.  I saw about a block away there was some sort of party going on at what looked like my old elementary school, so I stopped in.  There were a bunch of drunk people there, and at one table in particluar there were some people that I asked what was going on.  They joked that is was some big get together for nothing specific and everyone was having fun.

Suddenly I noticed on the table was an entire stack of my CLO parking passes that I give out to residents who have friends over so that they don't get towed.  I frowned, got annoyed, picked up the passes and left.  While I was walking back to CLO, the same group of drunk people plus this guy with some giant club was following me.  For some reason I knew he was going to try and beat me over the head and take back the passes so I...uh...stared him down.  In my dream it worked really well. 

When I went to open up the door to CLO a trio of drunk girls needed to use the bathroom inside, so I said fine.  It was then I realized the entire parking had turned into some crazy party.  I sighed and went back into my room - which I discovered wasn't mine anymore.  I had forgotten that I moved out at the end of the semester, and I needed to move all my stuff into my other room!  That would take hours and it was already midnight!  I had class tomorrow morning!

The rest of the dream was me trying to get across the hall while crazy people were everywhere.

What a stupid dream.

I had another one, but I'm not really going to post that here :)

-Phil

Current music: Phillips, Craig and Dean.

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5th December, 2006. 1:04 am. TO ESPN

To ESPN and all other news organizations who refuse to cut the Gators a break:

SUCK IT.

We fought and clawed our way to the national champion through the toughest teams in the nation and lost only once. Sorry we can't rack up points like Michigan and improve our computer score because we aren't playing pansy teams.

If we lose, then we lose - but we deserve the chance we earned.

-Phil

P.S. We beat FSU by a touchdown - one of our biggest RIVALRIES. You can't use the normal system when judging an instate rival. It's a totally different ball game. FSU played hard to try and knock us out, harder than they had all season.

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19th November, 2006. 2:56 am. In one of my rare moments of sports frustration

I love how ESPN talks about every single college team and their national championship hopes except for the Florida gators.

It's ridiculous. USC jumps ahead of us in BCS ratings when they've had the same season as us, with the exception of losing to an UNRANKED team. I understand Michigan/Ohio. But why does no one even MENTION UF when it comes to the national championship? I scoured the stupid site looking for SOMEONE to say it and no one did. We're number 3 in every poll except for BCS.

Let's talk about Notre Dame. I like them. But I find it EXTREMELY annoying when they beat the army (3-8) 49-9 and there is an article entitled "Quinn keeps Notre Dame in national championship chase"

but when Florida beats Western South Carolina (2-9) 62-0, there is NOTHING mentioned about ANYTHING.


Just...so...annoying...

You'd almost get the impression they don't like us.


At least we can take our anger out on FSU next week.

-Phil

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30th October, 2006. 4:31 am. cackling laughter of a madman

The Georgia game went well - it was one of those "bad win" situations though. The Gators just cannot play a consistent 4 quarters. We play a good 1st half and stink the second, or we play a bad 1st and are great in the 2nd. Final score was something like 21-14.

The only bad thing about that trip is I got up at 8:00am and got home about 10:00, at which time I shuffled off to praise band practice at GCL, which is great. I love playing and am happy for the opportunity. Ended late around 11:15 or something like that. Got back and tried to go to bed.

Woke up an hour early because though I set my clock back for the extra hour, it reset itself! So I showed up at the church an hour early and very tired. I look haggard now adays, and it makes me sad. I am in no way feeling... well yes, I do feel rather haggard and tired, but not nearly as much as the physical state under my eyes suggest. In anycase, we practiced and I got back around 1:00.. at which point I slept till about 5? Got up, messed around a bit, and started working on my 5 page article review and teacher observation. I'm sure I have something else to do but right now it's not registering in my brain.

I'm pushing through to Thanksgiving and, for the first time, am looking forward to going home.

...for a day till I come back up and do the FSU game. *sigh*

-Phil

Current mood: tired.
Current music: Phillips Craig and Dean - How deep the father's love for us.

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27th October, 2006. 10:10 pm. Good evening livejournalites

To those who have not been sucked into myspace, facebook or some other sort of online society.  Or to those who simply do them all.  I applaud your ability to spend that much time online - lord knows that I do.

I get upset sometimes, that I don't have anyone to share my thoughts with.  I have lots of acquaintences, some friends and a few close friends.  Sometimes I need something more though, someone more than a friend to talk to.  A person who understands perhaps.

It's been a while since I've had that.  Or did I ever have it?  I wouldn't take this to say that I am unhappy - on the contrary.  The Lord has blessed me in more ways than I can count.  I am the President of a housing organization, I live for free.  I attend the best public university in the state.  I am on track to receiving two masters degrees plus my undergraduate in 6 years.  I sit first chair in my ensemble, I have no current financial trouble.  My GPA is 3.84, I am on the dean's list.  I am a member of my church's worship group, I play the keyboard for it.

I can walk - I can talk.  I am able to express myself well and have no fear of public speaking.  I find it easy to lead and forge my own way.

It's just sometimes, on nights like these... I would like someone here to talk to.  Someone to miss me.

Enough.

I leave for the Florida-Georgia game tomorrow to put the smackdown on... heck, I don't even know their mascot.  I'm sure they'll be chomped though.  I need to get my laundry in tonight since I need certain items of clothing to wear under my uniform.  I look forward to marching band ending, I can focus more of my energies on what I find important.

I have a house meeting to run this wednesday and a board meeting to run on monday.  Vince is coming up to present some discussion and question concerning recruitment efforts for the fall.  We HAVE to hit 70+ members for this spring, we simply need the money.  Hopefully the board passes through that recruitment policy and we're all happy.

Adios.

-Phil

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9th October, 2006. 10:34 pm. This is a bit much

The only thing I see that's unique about this robot is that it will... well, no.  I don't see anything really interesting about it.  They've been doing this with the "Brain" machine and concert for years and years.  Machines interacting with music is an old concept, and I think the headline reading

MUSICAL ROBOT PERFORMS, COMPOSES AND TEACHES

is a little much and a bit misleading.  Everything about music is about the human experience.  Music has no practical application except for its meaning to human beings.  An animal could care less and a machine cares nothing.

What is composing anyway?  If it's simply "making up" rhythms then I compose every second of the day with my feet and the jingle of my keys as I walk, and should be unimpressed by that statement.  However, I also compose with a purpose.  Does the machine have a purpose?

Stupid influence of some of these electroacoustic 'test the boundry' people.

http://www.cnn.com/2006/TECH/10/03/musical.robot/index.html?section=cnn_tech

Thank you John Cage and 4 minutes 33 seconds.

-Phil

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4th September, 2006. 11:54 am. nuts.

Direct link: http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20060904/ap_on_en_tv/obit_irwin[info]

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19th August, 2006. 12:47 am. Following the yellow brick I-75 marker...

I'm off to see the gators, the wonderful gators of Gainesville.  I'm so stupid it hurts.

Well my friends, fellow citizens, enemies... Summer has come to a close.  With it, so ends my time of being a responsibilitless slob who is able to go to a job, come home and do nothing.  I look forward to many hours of practice.  To many hours of class.  To many hours of going "gee - is this really what I want to do?  I wonder if I should go medical for the money--'" because, as we all know, no body goes into the medical field to help people anymore.

To consoling residents when they have problems, to being the ultimate reason for everyone's living problems and never the reason for the successes.  To listening to graduate TA's tell me to enjoy college while it lasts.  To counting the days till every weekend.  To counting every week until vacation.  To counting every vacation till the end of the year.

To missing friends in the mind but being too busy to actually care.  To that little blood vessel on my professor's forehead when I play a wrong note three times in a row.  To that twitch in my adviser's eye when I ask for an appointment.  To that evil smile my music theory professor gets when I ask what about poly-harmonic chords.  To homework, to writing and to sleep!

But let me not forget what I have to look forward to....

To walking everyday!  To being single and on a campus where men are in the minority!  To waking up early and being forced to enjoy an entire day!  To a stable diet, to slacking off and pulling off my paper at the last minute - to FREEDOM.

Parties are in there somewhere, but for someone who doesn't drink or smoke, they aren't really high on my list.

Goals this semester:
Stay with God
Get with the worship band
Make sure this (music ed with business) is what I want to do
Keep a steady practice schedule
3.8+ semesterly GPA
Bring CLO off the brink
Get through marching season
Consider possibility of a girlfriend
Try to show up to class on time
Do my homework.

There - that list is in order of importance.  I leave tomorrow for Gainesville around 9AM... wish me luck and pray for my safe travel.  I might be back the 30th for Miriam's party... we'll see

Adios amigos... it was a fun - though uneventful - summer.  For a guy who had far too many adventures in the past 6 months, it's what I needed I think.

-Phil

Current mood: chipper.

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